With Love & Lex

“I’m tired of healing” is a statement I’m all too familiar with.

We know that healing isn’t instantaneous, it’s not ‘one and done’. But, when you’re in the depths of deep healing, you often crave the outcome, you crave no longer getting triggered, you crave the destination.

I think that’s the biggest thing I’ve learned through this process. It’s not about the destination, it’s about the journey.

I look back on my past self and I barely recognize her, I’ve healed so many traumas, mindsets, and insecurities since my journey began but I know I have so much more to go. I know when I am triggered by outside circumstances that it is pointing to pieces of me that still need work. This used to be so frustrating to me. “I’m tired of healing, when is my turn to just live?” I’ve literally said that before. But, that’s the thing- the point of healing IS to live, not to obsess over the process or it’s outcomes. Healing is a gift, not a chore. Healing is an experience, not a one-stop-shop.

I love that healing has become such a huge topic of discussion, it’s so important for the shared resources, tips and knowledge. I love that we are all collectively working on becoming the best versions of ourselves, for ourselves and for those around us. It is truly so beautiful to see. But, we can’t forget to live.

We are all vessels on this earth, with souls of varying experiences and lifetimes. We’re all here for a divine purpose, we all have work to do. It’s so important to remember that a part of that purpose is earthly. It’s about connection and the overall human experience. When you accept that you are here to live, the rest gets easier. Because if you’re reading this, I know that you may be struggling with the mindset I had for a while, that healing is my purpose and I have to be healed to have what I want in life. Here’s the tea though, what you want in life is already yours. Sometimes we have to let go of the “how” and the “when”, but what we want has always been divinely ours. So, healing may be your soul responsibility, but it’s not your sole responsibility. You can’t truly heal without surrendering to the human experience and finding joy in the process. Take care of the human in you, as well.

This song, Healing Is Not My Purpose by Tori Jones, does a great job of grounding me and reminding me of the importance of life when I need it most.

May your healing process be full of real life, mistakes, and growth. I’m proud of you for your hard work and dedication, go easy on yourself along the way.

With so much love and healing energy,

Alexa